Almost Now
by Patrick Holian
milked the sea for its blood, it came out the color and consistency
of college football and chaw. the last time was in the old growth
forest, she had just married the exercise in futility, he drove an
Aston Martin, ate steak with his hands. the spirits arrived in feathers
and county fair raffle tickets, coaxing. the last time wasn’t the last time,
but you kinda wish it was. the chosen one danced loose helixes in a
flowy, sheer Swiss muslin cherry-blossom-colored caftan on a mostly
dark stage lit only by the glowing voices of those that sang psalms.
the baseball player’s walkout song was Saturn Devouring His Son and
Selena, ‘Amor Prohibido.’ babies look like the old men dead set on
getting selected for jury duty. giant salamanders the color of adolescent
fire fled for shelter beneath the rotting logs. I know the girl who drove
her F-150 through the wing place on Congress, I used to crash on her
couch, she’d stroke my neck and my hair the nights I’d get sick beneath
her porch. I’m just red velvet, porcupine, chugging along now, gaining
mass and speed, I can feel it, almost now, can you feel it? almost now.
Patrick Holian (he/him/his) is a Mexican American writer from San Francisco, California. He holds an MFA in Creative Writing from Saint Mary’s College of California and a Ph.D. in English from the University of Louisiana at Lafayette. His writing has appeared in The Kenyon Review, Black Warrior Review, and Southeast Review. He is a 2024 Pushcart Prize nominee, and received a 2025 Creative Writing Fellowship in Poetry from the National Endowment for the Arts.